..same as the old blog.
Well, except that it’s on WordPress, of course.
In the process of migrating my LiveJournal and MySpace blogs over to WordPress, I got a chance to relive a lot of the last 3 years. Not all of it was fun.
Which leads to a tangent.
If you choose to read through the blog (not that I would expect any sane person to do so), you’ll notice an awful lot of hostility toward a certain comedy shop on Staples Mill Road. You might ask yourself why — 2 1/2 years after I was fired, I have all this hostility. To be honest, so do I. It’s not like I consciously decided to loathe the place, or its owner, as much as I do. There have been plenty of times where I try to figure out where the depth of this feeling comes from.
Fortunately, there is a theory that fits.
Unfortunately, the theory comes from a cartoonist. 🙂
Dilbert cartoonist Scott Adams, in his books, writes about the “illusion of free will”. He believes that there really is no such thing as free will — instead, we are all what he calls “moist robots”, whose actions could be predicted if you knew all the variables. He appears to admit that we are not predictable — but not because we have free will. It’s more that we don’t understand the “programming” in other people. So it appears we have free will, but he notes that it’s been proven that the part of our brain that controls our actions tends to fire off before the part that “thinks” about it… meaning we act before we decide to act.
And, I think, that theory works… at least with my feelings toward That Place. I don’t have a choice… I loathe the place because of the sum total of my life to that point. What happened there, combined with all of the other “programming” in my life, are why I feel the way I do. And I can’t just “decide” to stop feeling that way. It’s a part of me, beyond conscious choice.
Now if you don’t buy this, I’ll leave you with an argument Adams uses.
Most people will argue that our sexual preferences aren’t a choice. His argument? Why would sexual preference — arguably our most defining characteristic — not involve free will, but smaller and less important characteristics would? Either we have free will… or we don’t.
Feel free to use your illusory free will to argue the point.